Too much time on my hands!

Whilst waiting for my Polish lessons and Native teaching course to being and with Pawel in University of Fashion design 4 days a week, I am finding myself with plenty of time to myself. I know I should enjoy all this spare time as, come next week when my Polish lessons begin I bet I will be praying for a bit more free time.
I braved the outdoors alone, in an attempt to take the bus and tram into the city centre to go shopping and I actually didn't get lost! I am finding I can understand Polish much more than I can write or speak it. In fact, I don't really have a clue on Polish spellings but that can wait.
I have found myself filling my notebook with lists. Random to-do lists, what I want to buy lists, names I like ( I am NOT thinking of having a baby anytime soon, I just think it's fun!) story ideas and a goals list. Whether I'll actually complete any of these lists is another matter, it just fills in the time!                              I am also following beauty vlogs and channels on the 'how to and style' youtube channels. The two in particular being :  'queenbeeuty' and 'beautycrush.'  ( I love them!) It's actually got me thinking I would like to get onto a beauty course? Perhaps make up for stage and screen, like making zombies and other monsters, although I know it would take a lot of experience and know how and I would probably have to start with a typical beauty course. I think it would be fun and interesting. There is a beauty school in Warsaw so maybe I will do a course after finishing my Polish lessons around July time. 


 I know what you are thinking .. 'GET A LIFE LOREN!' But hey, it beats reading up on English grammar for my teaching course!  :)

Microgynon 30

Those hellish little yellow pills.

For a year and a half I had been taking these pills, unaware of the consequences I faced everyday due to them.

I knew my personality had changed, darkened. I had no energy and wouldn't want to go out with friends. I felt heavy and lifeless and felt myself uncontrollably being bitter and bitchy to everyone I loved and cared about. I wasted the last year of my Uni life being miserable (although part of that was due to being stuck in Crewe!) and I couldn't pinpoint a valid reason.

Of course, my boyfriend got the worst of it. My ridiculous ups and downs, energy spouts and sleepy spells, he could tell I wasn't myself and always asked if there was anything he could do to help, to which I would snap 'no.'
It was Pawel who suggested trying to stop using Microgynon (the contraceptive pill) and of course I stopped using it straight away. After a week I had noticed a huge difference in my temperament and really my entire personality. I became myself again, happier, carefree and much more full of life. I was lighter and relaxed, my weight stopped fluctuating and I looked forward to life again . 

I can't believe I had let myself suffer the dreadful side effects of the pill for so long, letting it change who I was and almost sacrificing the relationships I have. Nothing is worth that. I swear I am never going to touch those pills again and I am throwing the 10 months stash I have left in the bin!